Breastfeeding---the baby's perspective...part one--the first fifteen minutes

Entry five
(The First Fifteen Minutes)

I want to preface this entry by saying that as far as I know, I have no researched based evidence to support the information I am about to provide. The things I am getting ready to say come from 27 years of being around babies, new mommies and new daddies.  Some of these thoughts may have originated from something I heard along the way, either from a professional speaker, a colleague, a friend, a patient, or maybe I read it somewhere. I have no intent to plagiarize or to use anyone's researched information.
So take this info just for what it is and use it if you can....

I am going to try to tell this from the perspective of a newborn baby.  Remember, we don't really know what they are thinking so this is definitely not evidenced based research.  Just what I think....(baby thoughts in italics).

Birth---
Not really sure just what happened but I was soaking and wiggling around in a perfect temp jacuzzi bath and then something started to change.  It was like all the water quickly got drained out and I was getting pulled down the drain. Next thing you know, this weird feeling thing was trying to pull me out of a hole not near big enough for my head...then "BAM"...out of the jacuzzi and plopped up onto some slick warm mound.  I hear the voices that have been talking to me for the past nine months, but gee whiz stop rubbing on me, it is freezing out here!  People talking, crying, screaming, lights, noise that I never noticed before...and there is noise coming from me??? My mouth is opening up and I am just screaming along with everyone else. But now all the attention is turned to me....
They are moving me off the warm mound onto some hard, flat thing and just letting me lay here...whoa, they let go...whoa, please don't let me fall off this thing... I continue to scream. But they are calling out numbers...  let's see looks like he is going to be 8 lbs 12 oz. A big baby boy.  Let's take him over here under the warmer while they get mom fixed up.  We will do his vital signs and a brief assessment then he can go back to his mom and begin to breastfeed.
What in the world are they talking about...vital signs, mom, breastfeed...I just want back in the warm jacuzzi, and could you turn that spot light off. i prefer muted lighting and muted sounds. Why is everyone so touchy feely right now.  Wait, stop what's that?  There is something wet and cold going in my pooper place?  STOP!!!  Oh wait, that's not so bad,  I have been saving up the black sticky poop for nine months, I can just go ahead and let it rip...clean diaper...haha I'll show you.  

Okay so back over to the warm mound that feels remotely familiar.  I know that voice and those soft fingers touching my face. And that smell. Wow, Its the combo pack....mom, food, comfort all wrapped up into one exhilarating smell.  Oh wait...and i see it now. The dark target...as I lay here, skin to skin on my mom's chest I can see that round dark spot and I just know I have to get to it....now if I could just figure out how these legs work, I could push myself over there to see why I feel so compelled to get there.  I have relaxed some now, along with everyone else in the room. I just want some quiet time to spend getting to know the "voices" aka "mom and dad"!   But wait, as I look around, those touchy feely people are back, putting something in my eyes...goo...i was just getting ready to take a good look at my mom and now I have "goo" eyes.  Somebody wipe that stuff away.  I just want to see her...
I start screaming again. I don't like all this stimulation. I just want to cuddle up in my jacuzzi, suck on my fingers and tongue and float around like I have been for the past nine months. But I just keep seeing that big round dark thing...I know I need to get over to it...

  

Sidebar--I admit it...I watched The Bachelor.

manchild #1

manchild #2

I admit it...I watched "The Bachelor" this season.  Tonight in the final episode, when Sean was talking with his mom and she got all teary, I did too.  Anyone that knows me will tell you , I don't get teary eyed very much but tonight when she was just overcome with I guess, fear, about whether or not Sean was going to make the right choice really struck home with me. 

As a mom of two adult sons who aren't married or even in relationships right now, I could really empathize with her.  To me, but I'm sure not to our sons , the question is, how are they going to replace me...the most significant woman in their lives, with someone else? 

Now I am definitely not saying that I don't want to be replaced...because I definitely want them to find the mate God is preparing for them!   We have been praying for these women since these baby boys were born!   But when it comes down to it, we do want the best one--made especially for them.  How terrifying it would be to see the uncertainty in either of my Manchilds in choosing a mate for life!  Thank God, for the peace that passes all understanding when "Momma's" have to watch this process!  I will so welcome the time when those Godly women enter our lives just as much as I dread the time also. The manchild's  hearts are tender and easily hurt.  So for now I just keep praying that whoever those special women are, I pray they love Jesus more than they love my boy(s) and if that is the case, then I have no worries! Just more love to give! Fill my cup and let it overflow! Amen!