talk about it thursday...

Wordless Wednesday was a pic of actual FAT!

Growing up as a child I was SKINNY!

When I got married, I was SKINNY!

After I had my first baby, I was fairly SKINNY!

After I had my second baby, I was still, fairly SKINNY!

At the age of 37,

in a period of two months...

I went from

fairly SKINNY

to

fairly FAT.

Some physical things happened from November 1997

to

January 1998

and I have never been the same since.

Now 

all two of my followers out there have only known me in the shape (literally)

that I am now.

but

in my mind...

I AM STILL SKINNY!

Unfortunately, the mirror and my clothes sizes have another version.

And then there is the argument that I just don't eat healthy.

That argument might hold water if this whole fat thing had happened over time, but it didn't.

It happened in TWO MONTHS!

For the past 15 years of my life i have fought this FAT virus,

as I will call it.

FAT virus has robbed joy from my life.

I don't like being FAT.

I have tried every diet out there that excludes eating vegetables and salads.

They work temporarily.

Short term at the best.

I have never returned to that special number on my scales that puts me back in the skinny group.

I go up and down from

 fairly FAT

 to

 bigger than I really should be FAT

 to

it had to be the 3 cartons of egg nog I drank over the holidays FAT.

I have gained

 12pounds

 since the first of December, putting me back to a record high!

Okay, okay...I can hear all of you veggie lover, salad eaters out there right now, saying,

"Well its obvious why you are FAT...you eat all the wrong things."

Well...maybe I don't eat all the wrong things. 

I have totally stopped drinking diet coke and drink somewhere between 75- 90 ounces of water a day.

We have essentially eliminated red meat from our diet,

(thanks to the uric acid crystals which keep accumulating in my husband's

joints causing significant pain for him and irritation for me...

I have to take care of him).

We rarely eat out anymore, and thanks to Pinterest,

I have found about 10 new recipes for how to make chicken taste just a little different this time.

And I don't want to hear the line,

"oh, you're a nurse, you should eat better..."

Do you really think your profession changes your taste buds???

Bottom Line...

I started another diet yesterday.

It is not

 weight watchers,

south beach,

jenny craig

nutra system,

blood type,

or any of the all too familiar ones we all have tried and failed.

It is the

ROBIN doesn't want to be fat anymore diet

and you all are my accountability partners.

Here are my declarations for this project:

I will eat less.  (portion control)

I will eat less sugar and foods which turn into sugar on my rear.

I will do something everyday or at least 5 days a week that raises my heart rate in order to burn more calories.

I will eat a little less bacon.

And if I do have a bad day and break all of the above declarations...

I will admit my guilt and look at myself in the mirror naked

and say three times.

YOU ARE FAT.

YOU ARE FAT

YOU ARE FAT.

So all of you,

 (not my two followers) overweight, exercising, vegetarian salad eaters...

and you know they are out there,

I am going to get back to SKINNY, eating my

white, colorless food with a dash of bacon....just to show you

I can!

looking  forward to Friday Fotos....